used by the guy who was always nice to me
he was funny and the kindest person youd see
he made me feel welcome in a new group
made you feel like part of the town troup

but i was warned by all our friends
that all his relationships have horrible ends
he was known as a player by all
was he had you hed never call

i chose to ignore all their advise
knowing i might have to pay a price
a broken heart and torn dreams
he isnt what he seems

so with my broken heart and broken wings
i cling onto the little things
like the time we spent together
i know i will always remember

i cant forget the hurt he did to me
now i cry so hard i can barely see
used and abused i feel betrayed
coz he used me for his evil ways

  "There's A Class For This"

What you got now gotta, gotta give it up
What you got now gotta, gotta give it up
What you got now, what you got now

We keep ourselves a mystery
But we provide, provide the clues
So the rest is up to you
and don't forget to check the obvious
We are so serious
So I guess it all comes down to how curious you can be

What you got now gotta, gotta give it up
What you got now gotta, gotta give it up
What you got now, what you got now

Drama doesn't follow me it rides on my back
I may be ugly but they sure love to stare
Drama doesn't follow me it rides on my back
I may be ugly but they sure, they sure, love to stare

And you check labels more than the FCC
and these calories are, are killing me
But this is a sticky situation
So keep your chest in the game
And drop your jaw and coax me
(just coax me, just coax me)

What you got now gotta, gotta give it up
What you got now gotta, gotta give it up
What you got now, what you got now

Drama doesn't follow me it rides on my back
I may be ugly but they sure love to stare
Drama doesn't follow me it rides on my back
I may be ugly but they sure (they sure) they sure

This is a party without the people
This is a show without the sounds
This is a dance without the steps
Now I gave you the clues, so find what I've found
This is a party without the people
This is a show without the sounds
Now I gave you the clues, so find what I've found

Drama doesn't follow me it rides on my back
I may be ugly but they sure love to stare
Drama doesn't follow me it rides on my back
I may be ugly but they sure love to stare

got a lot to say to you
Yeah, I got a lot to say
I noticed your eyes are always glued to me
Keeping them here
And it makes no sense at all

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies

Crush
Crush
Crush
Crush, crush
(Two, three, four!)

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this

If you want to play it like a game
Well, come on, come on, let's play
Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending
Than have to forget you for one whole minute

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies

Crush
Crush
Crush
Crush, crush
(Two, three, four!)

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this now

Rock and roll, baby
Don't you know that we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
Give me something to sing about

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
No, oh

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
More than this

"Miracle!"

I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive
So I'm going to start over tonight
Beginning with you and I
When this memory fades
I'm gonna make sure it's replaced
With chances taken
Hope embraced
and have I told you?

I'm not going
cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
When it might save you

We've learned to run from
Anything uncomfortable
We've tied our pain below and no one ever has to know
That inside we're broken
I tried to patch things up again
To calm my tears and kill these fears
But have I told you, have I?

I'm not going
Cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
When it might save you

It's not faith if, if you use your eyes
Oh why
We'll get it right this time (this time)
Let's leave this all behind
Oh why
We'll get it right this time
It's not faith if you're using your eyes
Oh why

I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive
So I'm going to start over tonight
Beginning with you and I

I don't want to run from anything uncomfortable
I just want, no
I just need this pain to end right here

I'm not going
Cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
Cause it might save you

Yeah, it might save you
Oh, it might save you

It's not faith if, if you use your eyes
If you use your eyes
If you use your eyes

bones are beautiful
bones are stunning
bones are pretty
bones are awazing

i wish i could see my bones
i wish i could feel them there
i wish i was bones
i wish i was how they are

never have i been perfect
never have i been pretty
never have i been mimicked
never have i been skinny

always have i been blemished
always have i been vile
always have i been ignored
always have i been heavy

this is the way i am
this is the way i do not wish to be

that is why i am doing all i can
so fat you can no longer see

my body will suffer
my body will pay

but my will power shall be tougher
till i am happy with what i weigh

no food shall pass these lips
no evil shall be in my system

so no fat will get to my hips
meals? no longer will i want them

my struggle to become what i want
the battle that must be won

my new body i will flaunt
to show them all what has been done
to show them that i have won

AGGGHHHH i hate this i hate this i hate this why i cant just lay down and die like i should. im no good to anyone i only hurt people and i destroy everything

het i just gotta say if u are having trouble with self control ask someone to be ur buddy on here and they will give u great moral suport and u can go on fastings at the same time and make eachother feel better
luv u all
think thin
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Current Mood: horny
Current Music: this is the new shit by marylin manson

HIYA *waves* Well this is the first of my journal entries ... obviously. well here are the basic things you should know about me ( i know some of them are seriously weird but that is just who i am and if you dont like it well screw you :p)

• I hate every little thing about myself and nothing anyone says makes me feel any different they dont have to live with being a fat little neurotic fucked up insecure emotional stressed out girl in the middle of trying to get good gcse grades.
• My family should die they are all such sellfish pigs who blame everything on me because they cant blame it on my brother cause he is a retard (he has asperges syndrome)
• I have a lot of issues with everything it really never makes any sense
• i have some suicidal tendencies
• i do cut myself it is actually really addictiong and is a way of reliving great amounts of stress... till you have to hide it from your parents and friends *sighs*
• I am annorexic because i am this big fat whale of a girl who has no self control when it comes to eating
• i am a sorta alcoholic whenever i get even a tiny bit of the stuff i want more then when i get drunk i scream for the stuff
• i love being with my friends
  
• i love concerts they are a great calorie burner
• i love the guy i can never get
• i am not going to tell you my name because you will then know who this fucked up girl is and itt would lower my self esteem even more
• I HATE LIFE

so it is rather weird but thats who i am i am a freak a very weird freak.

Current Location: in my dads study
Current Mood: pessimistic
Current Music: chasing cars- snow patrol